Admitting the fact that you’re mad at God, can be hard. Recognizing it can be even harder.
As Christians, we often try to be perfect and fall into guilt, anger, sadness, and many other things when perfection escapes us. This often causes a debilitating stage where we tend to regress, hide, or otherwise cover up or run from the real issue – the thing that lies beneath. Whether it’s church hurt, pain from loneliness, job loss, or other difficulties, when the tough gets going, we don’t tend to be as tough.
Well, initially, we may be pretty tough.
Initially, we can quote bible verse after bible verse, walk affirmed in what God is going to do for us, and have the faith of Abraham, Isaac, and Joseph. (Which seems to be a lot like denial when you think about the stages of grief.)
As time progresses, faith begins to falter. Quoting scripture becomes much tougher. And praying is flat-out hard.
This is when we realize the true strength, or lack thereof, of our inner super saint.
And it’s not just us.This dates back to Bible times. Jesus’s disciple, Thomas, was a doubter. Peter, the one who was ready to go to war for Jesus – slashing off an ear and everything – denied Christ when the kitchen got hot. And my devotion clearly stated that Job, Moses, and David had their bouts of emotional moments as well.
While we may not go to the extent of denying Christ, though some do, we may find ourselves bitter, angry, and maybe even cynical. (Though I truly don’t recommend the latter.) You find yourself frustrated. He hasn’t answered your prayer; at least not the way you wanted, and He allows you to stay single and lonely, jobless, and maybe even hopeless.
Saying that you’re mad at God is scary. It’s scary to say to the One whom you were taught to respect – the One who can strike you down at any moment and has proven to do so – that you’re mad at them.
But that is the entirely incorrect view.
He’s not looking to punish you. He’s looking to restore you. To walk with you through the situation. He said that He’d never leave us. He said that He loves us. He tells us that He’s our Father. [Name one good father that you know who intentionally walks away from their child. Exactly.]
He literally died for that restoration, and offers us an intimate relationship with relationship with Him.
We’ve been taught to rationalize things throughout our entire life. But Christianity is more than rational. It’s a matter of the heart…very similar to spousal relationships. Communication is a key component of both.
It’s natural to get mad at God. In fact, it’s okay to get mad at God. The key is what you do with that anger. Do you allow it to fester or do you honestly talk to God about it. I promise, if you talk to Him, He’ll be there listening, read ready to love on you and restore your broken spirit.