It’s night. That time when I generally hit my journal with a prayer, play a bit of Candy Crush, read the Bible on a good day, and then close my lids for some hours.Me and headphones

Tonight, I went to hit my journal – to first journal and then pray. But this Pandora station is right, especially for my mood.

The Station: SWV

Currently Playing: Tevin Campbell, Can We Talk

Previously Played: SWV, Rain

I mean…I really wanted to journal about my issues, my hectic day, and my responsibility for being burned out…but really; how can you be in a bad mood with this playing in the background.

It takes you back to the careless days of the 90s…late elementary, middle school and high school. Ah…there were some good times during those years. Especially middle and high school. And Tevin Campbell…who didn’t have a crush on him? Well, I didn’t but that’s neither here nor there. The point is nostalgia.

Double Dutch

Jump rope

Gym class where you really didn’t do much

Ahhh the good old days

Laughin in the hallways

Wanting adulthood, but enjoying the teen years with much pleasure

Or was that only us at the “O”

Ahhhh…

Talent shows

Dance offs

And boys inappropriately showing their bird chests

And girls screaming at the voices freshly pubertized chests drenched in baby oil

(Okay…maybe they didn’t go that far, but had to set the scene)

Ahhh…the good old days

“Back in the day when I was young”

Remember that song

Now Playing: Can’t You See, Total

I sigh

Yet, I smile

Still feeling the pressures of reality

But totally enjoying the escape

Can we go back to the 90s?

Can we live high school forever?

Oh…what I’d do to have just one more day as a teen

Now Playing: Can’t Take My Eyes Off You, Lauren Hill

The Fugees

“Ooh La La…”

Who remember’s that

“Killing Me Softly”

No clue what that really meant

And it was absolutely fine

Actually, better

Lyrics I didn’t quite understand

Too deep for my 15-year-old mind to grasp

Yet beats that my 33-year-old self can partner with the lyrics

And find pure bliss

And sometimes repulsion

Yet I digress

Today, we celebrate

The times of old

Days of yonder

Shakespeare-type stuff

Remember that

Literature and stuff

You know

The days before bills

Ahhh…the good old days

And this one

Aaliyah, 4 page letter

The definition of love meets rebellion

The Romeo and Juliet of hip hop

I don’t know

These songs just take me back

And still make so much sense

More sense

I used to sing the words

Now I sing the feelings

Understanding

“Momma always told me to be careful who I love,

And Daddy told me to be wise”

I’m sending him a 4 page letter

And I enclosed it with a kiss

*music fades*

 

Work

  • Travel. 2 business trips, which means 2 hotels, 8 times in airports, subway trips, and cab rides. The good: I’m becoming a pro at this travel thing, and I felt pretty accomplished being able to take the subway…and actually understand it on my own.
  • I’m a Mac girl. The slow PC did it to me. Since my job believes in BYOD (bring your own device), I’ve opted to use my Mac for work. Much faster and it weighs less. (Being a mobile worker, meaning my bag plays the role of my desk at times, this lighter weight is much more helpful.)
  • Google Drive. If I had a man, Google drive would be my mister. I spend a ridiculous amount of time on Google Drive, and being an MS Office power users, I was a little hesitant. It hasn’t been bad so far. Guess you can teach a girl new tricks.
  • Calendars, meetings and planning. Oh my. I’d like to give the Emmy to Google Spreadsheets for helping with project management
  • Yearly performance review. Grade: A. Okay. We really don’t get grades, but if there were a grade, I would receive an A. Almost two years in, and I’m still seen as an asset. I can’t say reviews have always been this way. Nice to be appreciated, seen as intelligent, and your work seen as beneficial.
  • WORKING HARD. PLAYING LESS. I’m definitely earning my pay.

Read. Watch. Listen.

  • My Selfish Existence. 1st because she’s my friend. 2nd because I like to stalk her life. 3rd because I adore her writing style.
  • This post on Life Doesn’t Knock. Anyone who suffers from depression can relate. The amount of transparency is astounding. Simply knowing that someone else “gets it” is comforting.
  • Come ye sinners, poor and needy. In this blog, where the tagline is “savoring the beauty of everyday,” the author looks forward to Easter as she writes about apathy toward everyday things. Not only was I drawn to the mood of the post, the comments were also attractive and relatable. Emotionally tired is an understatement some days. Apathy, or even hopelessness, can set in. The author’s way of “keeping it real” helped me once again I’m not on this journey alone.
  • Stand-up comedy. Anjelah Johnson got on my good side with 2 of her stand up shows on Netflix. I LOL’d in my house, and I found myself laughing for days to come.
  • Vines. I love to laugh and funny Vine compilations hit the spot. Who cares I was home alone when watching. It was fun-ty.
  • YouTube. These people > her, her, this family, him, and her < have been getting my YouTube attention. While I’m still into the beauty vloggers, watching the same stuff by the same people over and over again gets to be a bit too much for me. Whether it’s through humor, substance, or transparency, I find these YouTubers often adding some sort of value – though shallow it may be at times –  to my life.
  • Pandora. Stations I’ve been tuning into are Byron Cage, Tye Tribett, Michael Jackson, India Arie, Deborah Cox, and Hip Hop Road Trip. I like to feed my spirit with gospel music in the morning. In the afternoon, I use a little NeoSoul, R&B, Pop, and Hip Hop for support and  motivation.

Spiritual

  • Lumina Bible study tool. Wanna dig deeper into the Bible? I definitely recommend this app.
  • Mad at God. I was really struggling with being single; to the point I’d become bitter.  I saw this plan on the YouVersion and decided to dive in. 2 days into the plan, and I’d gotten to the root of my problem.

Food

  • Guilty pleasure. Peanut M&Ms. Delicious. I devoured a huge bag all by myself within a week.
  • Chicken chunks. I’ve recently rediscovered these pre-cut chicken breasts with thigh meat.  I sear them and then let them simmer to finish cooking for a quick, yet tasty meat solution. My Weight Watchers grade for this option: A.
  • Sweet potato fries. Though I suffered an injury, I successfully made them at home for the first time. They went well with said chicken chunks and work well with the Weight Watchers point system.
  • Lettuce wrap tacos. They were surprisingly delicious. Beef and salsa on top of romaine lettuce. Another winner for the Weight Watchers category.
  • Shrimp. Cooked the same way as I cook the chicken chunks with different seasonings and served with white rice and sugar. (Judge me if you like. My family has southern roots.)
  • Smart Ones Pizza. Pop these babies in the microwave
  • Activia Strawberry Greek Yogurt Light. Great snack. Even better since it’s only 1 Weight Watcher point.

Leisure and the Interwebs

  • Flute. I’ve wanted to pick the flute back up for a while now…so I did. Purchased it from amazon.com
  • I had a nasty breakup with Facebook. If you haven’t seen enough about this, you can read more here and here.
  • Twitter and I became reacquainted on a personal level. And I get why it get’s the approval of so many, yet, so many just don’t get it. It’s hard to “get it” in 140 characters or less. But that’s what makes it beautiful.
  • Pinterest. I’m just like the others. Food, home decor, and fashion. So typical. No apologies. *insert evil laugh*
  • Le blog. I’ve been writing a lot on life lately. I’ve also done a couple of Daily Post challenges. I’ve found blogging to be my happy place. It’s cathartic, gives me an opportunity to exhale, and pass on a bit of what I’ve learned.

Home

  • Office and bathroom makeover underway. Almost complete…but not. Typical me. But if you like the colors peach, light gray, dark gray, and white…you may like one or both of these rooms. One thing I’ve noticed is that I’m in a color rut. By the end of all my current makeovers, almost my entire house – excluding my basement – will be shades of coral, peach, orange, gray, turquoise, and white.
  • Cleaning. Shout out to my friends who made it okay to have someone help around the house. From folding laundry to cleaning the kitchen, bathroom, and spare bedroom, the young lady who helps me is awesome. Maybe I’m a bit lazy, but I’m excited this is one thing I don’t have to carry the burden of alone.

Piston the Pooch

  • Peeing and pooping. INDOORS. It’s generally my fault when she doesn’t go outdoors, but I have pads for her. One by the front door. One by the back. But nooooo. She prefers to go BY THE PADS. My floor and Meijer brand Swiffer wet pads and Meijer disinfectant wipes are now on a first name basis.
  • Less peeing and pooping indoors. I’d like to give a shout out to my Lord and Savior for better weather. I hated taking Piston out in the winter. Now that it’s warmer outside, it’s less of a chore…meaning she’s less apt to do her business inside.
  • Disobedient. When she blatantly ignored me, it was a sign that something had to give. After going to the Dog Whisperer’s website, I learned a thing or two; namely, go back to the basics. To the backyard we went, treats and food in tow. Sit, stay, slow, lay were all things we worked on. Rewards were given. And my friendly spray bottle is the firm hand of the law for when she disobeys or does something I don’t want her to do.